45 Poems on

the Cosmos, Knowledge, Time and Life

 

Alexander V. Riasanovsky

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 


 

Tum-Foolery

 

Black holes –

They say

Are the voracious

Gloti

Of the universe

Swallowing all:

Matter, energy, light,

Even darkness

Rendering laws

Meaningless…

 

Done feasting

They rest,

Quiescent, digesting

Then,

            Suddenly

They belch back

With a Big Bang!

 

Are life, hope, wisdom,

Art

But the result

Of Cosmic Indigestion?

 

Forgive me,

Physicist,

If I still prefer

The ancient

Seven-day

Hypothesis.

 

 

When two hypotheses purport to explain the same phenomenon, scientists choose (often) the more “elegant” of the two.  At the present stage of development, our scientists have produced several hypotheses (at this stage “metaphors”) of Creation.  On the principle of “elegance” I prefer the old “seven day” explanation over the particular one suggested here.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Destruction is Creation Played Backwards

 

Successfully

                        Predicting

Models are

Histories

Of the future

 

Written

            before

The event

 

So thinking

Scientists

May soon deduce

Why

Big Bang particles

Are spread

Round and round

Through the cosmos

So evenly

 

Distribution occurred

Before the birth

Of time

 

Or was it after

It’s death?

 

 

 

Again, the notion of replaying or rerunning time – the possibility of “action” out of time.  Since gravity seems to have an effect on slowing down or speeding up the “rate” of time, was there time before gravity, i.e. when there was no “matter”, but merely energy?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Big Bang

 

Whatever

                made

Our Cosmos:

                        matter, time,

                        space,

                                    and us

 

Is Still

Intangent

 

Passing through

                          The nets of science

                          Baited hooks of faith

                          Traps of belief

Elusive and unscathed

 

The Far Horizon

Still recedes

As we approach it

 

Still there…

 

And yet

No nearer

Than it ever was

Before.

 

 

 

Written to express some dissatisfaction with our various versions of cosmography – the “making” of our Cosmos – versions scientific, religious, mythological, etc.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Some Thoughts at Berne

 

Achilles

Still chases

His tortoise

 

Zeno’s arrow

Still sings

In the air

 

Tomorrow

We’ll midwife

The Cosmos

 

Or stand

Half a distance

From there?

 

 

 

Berne, Switzerland, is a great scientific research center, where, by use of tremendously sophisticated equipment, scientists have gotten closer, and closer, and closer to defining the “conditions” of the Big Bang (birth of our universe) – it is now a matter of an incredibly small amount of time which seems to separate the experimenters from their goal – something on the order of several ten billionth of a second.  But as they get closer and closer and closer, the question arises: Will they reach that goal, or are they caught in something like Zeno’s paradox?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Atom Smasher

 

Awesome building!

Leaded shielding

Massive walls

Smell of ozone

In the halls

 

Static chatter

Relay clatter

Miles of cable

Power-laden to enable

Generators, accumulators

Boosters and accelerators –

Guided lightening, captive thunder! –

Megawatts to rend asunder

At computer’s coded call

Nuclei so infinitely small

That their spatial matrix is

Mere calculate hypothesis.

 

                     Why then,

         Is it so simple

                     To smash a man?

 

 

The old problem of human fragility and, at the same time, the immensity of both mind and physical power we command

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

A Matter of Identity

     I                                                                                         

 

The cloned

Toad

Sits

                        (with a feint air

                        of self-approval)

Eyes abulge

Resting

 

A puzzle

For us all

           

What patterns, matrixes,

Genetic codes,

What senses, feelings,

Thoughts, discriminations,

 What energies

         molecular,

         atomic,

         psychic

What double helixes

Still tie it

To that other toad

Which is

Itself?

 

     II

 

But the toad’s trial

Is over

Past

 

Events

Acquit it

 

For it lives,

Sits

            (with a feint air

             of self-approval)

Untroubled

Quiescent.

 

     III

 

Now

Comes our

Human

Turn

 

Our trial

Our ordeal

The crisis

Is upon us

 

What good

What ill

Will come

Of this day’s

Doing?

 

How like a God!

Or is it

Devil?

 

 

 

The Mary Shelley question again.  The power of science – the fragility of human life and morals.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

From Master Lao to Professor Hegel and Back Again

     I     

But in that

Other

         cosmos,

Then,

Is

    their ying

Our yang,

Their Lord

Our

       Jade

Emperor?

           

Is not, then,

Our pride

Their

            humility;

            Our

                        wealth,

            Their

                        poverty;

            Our

                        right,

            Their

                        wrong;

            Our

                        good,

            Their

                        evil?

                                   

            The irreversible in

            Of their

            Out?

 

                 II

 

            All this

                        is

Too much

A Western

Conception

 

The dialectic

Need not be

                    a struggle,

But a harmonious

Balance,

               betimes

               a blending,

Of opposites

 

The dao

Eludes

The syllogism

It can only be lived,

Only practiced

 

     III

 

Blizzards

Blow

From the north

Hot winds

From the south

 

But on Lake

Tung-tin

There’s nary

A ripple,

Save fish striking,

To ruffle

The surface.

 

 

Eastern concepts seen through Western eyes.  The possibility of a “peaceful” dialectic seems intriguing, and certainly a happier conception than Western disciples of Hegel have envisioned.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Two Lunatics

 

Twelve hundred years ago

Old man Li-po

Tried to embrace

His Mistress Moon,

But failing, he merely fell

And drowned in a lonely

Chinese

             well…

 

Much later,

Spurred

By knowledge hunger

And by pride,

The need to win a triumph

For our side,

Yet acting for the Human Race,

We sent brave men

Into the awesome well of space

At journey’s apogee to place

Boot scars forever

On Her earth-lit face

 

            We called it

            Furthest reach

            Of man!

 

But can we know,

When all is said and done

If Armstrong or Li-po

Got closer

To the moon?

 

 

The answer is neither.  Poetic and scientific “knowledge” compliment, not supplant, each other.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Snake Control

 

                        Within my dreamscape

Lies

An ocean’s deep

Strange dragons

Dwell

Within its keep

All silently…until

A sudden gale’s sweep

Whips waves to frenzy

When

They surface, rise to challenge

And to roar

And drive reality before

The terror

                 of their ways!

 

But then,

As suddenly,

The gale gone,

They fall again

At beck and call

Of something other

Then my conscious

Will…

 

Upon awakening,

All is still;

Once more

I am the dragon keeper,

While they,

Reduced to symbols,

Are

Whatever

I shall make them seem

Seem

Mere figments

Of an old professor’s

Dream?

 

…or is it I,

A shadow shape,

In cycles

Of a dragon’s dreamscape

Caught

            …with no escape?

 

 

A rephrasing of the question posed by a Chinese philosopher who dreamt of a butterfly and upon awakening wondered whether he was really a butterfly dreaming that he was a Chinese philosopher.  As a child in China, I was fascinated by dragons – which to this day serve for me as symbols of certain aspects of China.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Tales Told and Untold

 

(From the Bright and Dark Sides of the Sun)

 

The Zuni storyteller

Stares

            at us

In open-mouthed

Frank

Surprise:

                Our presence

                disturbs

                the desert

 

                Our ignorance,

                the fitness

                of things

 

                We show

                no

                    knowledge

                of the simplest

                sunlit

                        symbols

 

                Nor

                        of the other

                side, the darknesses

                beyond

                            the sun…

 

But then,

He makes his eyes

Long tearless

And with visions

Full

Grow dull

Not to reveal

For wastage

Treasures

Of the wise…

And let’s us:

 

                     count bones

                     and measure stones

 

                     collect our artifacts

                     to write

                     our learned

                     tracts

 

                     and try to glue

                     shards of the past

                     together

 

As if

A    broken pot

Once

It has lost

Its soul

Can be made whole

Again

By merely

               …men.

 

 

Again, an attempt to understand something of Zuni Indian culture, and their apparent belief that a pot, once broken, has lost its “soul.”  There is a Russian belief that church-bells also have souls – if a hole is drilled in one, it can never be restored to ring the same tone.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Australian Soulscape

 

The last wave broke

Washing

The right side

Of my mind

In images

 

Fleeing…

It left

Whorls and curliques,

Tracings, designs

 

Soul symbols,

Spirit signs

Of strange dark men

I’ve never seen,

I’ve never met…

 

And yet,

              surely

And yet,

              joyfully

My brothers!

 

 

Australian aborigine culture in many ways seems distant – perhaps, of all cultures, the most distant – from our Western ways.  Some thoughts about the underlying similarity (after seeing the superb Australian film “The Last Wave”).

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

French Landscape Seen when Looking out of a Window of an Inn

 

How marvelous

It is!

 

So close at hand:

                            One world with

                            And one

                            Without

                            Glasses.

 

I put them on

(if you insist)

And see details

As realist

 

But then,

As quickly

As I can

I take them off

And look again

                           And see essentials

                           Like Cezanne!

 

 

It is often a matter of perception.  I’m very nearsighted, and without glasses tend to see outlines of objects and colors, sometimes (especially when in France) something like a Cezanne landscape.  The title suggests that for me this is an in (“Inn”) thing to do.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Prayer for Sense Extension

 

Lord…

 

Grant me eyes

To see

A sigh

 

And ears

To hear

Sorrow.

 

 

Sense-data (empirical data) is essential to science.  Scientists spend much effort on what may be called “sense extension” – for example, trying to “see” beyond normal or ordinary sight into the infra red and ultra violet ranges of the full spectrum (as in the case of infra red and ultra violet telescopes).  This little verse expresses a hope that sense-extension should be attempted into ethical/moral as well as physical realms.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The Judas Blackbirds

 

When the blind

Ask the sighted

They get the same

Reply

 

But deep inside

They know

The sighted always

Lie

 

                             This truth

                             All blindmen

                             Can see

 

                             In thirteen tongues

                             It cries to me…

 

 

Wallace Stevens wrote a magnificent poem concerning the thirteen ways of seeing blackbirds.  None of these “work” for “blindmen” and, of course, blindwomen.  So how, in how many ways (unknown to the sighted) do they “see” blackbirds?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Yard Music

 

His hard analytical

Lens

Bought at Harvard

Typically sees

Less

Than there is

 

Letting truth

Slip around

The eyeball

 

To settle

Like dust

In a corner.

 

 

Too much “hard” analysis may desiccate both the subject of analysis and the scientist performing the analysis.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Inner Vision for the Outward Bound

 

Space

Is not

The final

Frontier

But the mind

That

         made

It.

 

 

A kind of tribute to the philosopher Bishop Barkeley.  The nutrino was first hypothesized, and only years later discovered.  Scientists knew “where” and “what for” to look.  Until “found” empirically the nutrinos did not exist in a scientifically significant sense.  To what extent can it be said that the nutrino was “created” theoretically before being discovered?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Solo Stag at Business

 

In this

Our universe

Where

Two plus two

Equals four

Infinity or

Zero ---

 

In this welter world

Of laissez faire ---

 

The choice

Was obvious,

Wallace

 

But the precincts

Of your agency

Were haunted

By ghosts

Of another

Genre:

 

            Willows and green springs

            Elephant’s ears

 

            Claviers

            Uncles and monocles

 

            Monarchs of ice cream

            Tambourines, dancing mice

            And whispered refrains

 

            (Silk pillows beaded with tears

            And persimmons, with honey?)

 

Gorgeous symbol-systems

Tuned to finesse,

Precise and compelling,

Structured, shaped, balanced,

Deployed

In columns and lines

Wound tight

Then set

Into motion

 

Real order found, after all!

Or sense of office

Protocol?

 

In verse

As in prose,

Wallace

 

                        Key West was never wholly free

                        Of bottom line symmetry…

 

 

In America, two brilliant “artist-businessmen”, the composer Charles Ives and Wallace Stevens, refused to recognize any barrier or contradiction between “culture” on the one, and “business” on the other hand.  The “Stag” in the title is the logo of the Hartford Insurance Co., and Stevens was Vice-President of Hartford.  “Money,” said Stevens, “is the greatest symbol of all.  A kind of poetry.”  (I’m not sure the quote is exact).  The long and the short of it – Stevens enjoyed being both poet and businessman.  And this is an interesting insight into American culture (whether the “aesthetic” elite likes it or not).  Both the English and Russian translation have been published.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Meteor

 

Once – how?

I don’t lnow

I caught the flow

Of sound

Made long ago

(Unheard ‘til now)

 

A flow of sound

All aglow

It kissed the stars

Then bowling low

Embraced

The ground.

 

 

The genesis of the poems’ title is interesting.  I wrote it to describe the mystical experience (which I have never had) mentioned by poets – that of hearing “celestial” music.  I showed it to an astronomer friend (in our Cosmic History Club) who immediately said, “Ah! A meteor.”  This does – and perhaps should – happen in poetry.  A natural object – trees, mountains, clouds – “mean” and “communicate” different things to different people.  A poem – once written – begins to “lead a life of its own” (according to the great American poet Wallace Stevens) – a poem, once written, becomes an “object in nature” and in this sense, a “natural object”.  Why shouldn’t – then – a poem communicate different things to different people (to an extent, it does so already).  Finally: I’ve never heard celestial, star music, but I’ve seen meteors hit.  This may have been my mystical experience.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Stoa

 

Who weeps

For failures

And matches

Tear for tear?

 

Success

Is far too blind

To its price

And deafens

Ears

To mercy

 

While losers

Are

Too much

Caught-up

In self

To tightly pinned

By pain of their loss

To offer others

Comfort,

              Shelter

Or surcease.

 

                                    An honest stand-off –

                                    Stale mate with life

                                    Seems better

                                    Than the two extremes…

 

 

I’ve always admired Epictetus (the slave) and Marcus Aurelius (the Emperor) – and all genuine stoics.  But I suppose I’m not strong enough to be one with them.  This poem also seems to contain a tough of Dao.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Talking to an Agency

 

Words rubbed each other

Abrading a sibilance:

 

Like hot beach-wind

Humming

Through carapaces

Of dead crustaceans

Sand-scowering the meatless,

Brittle, bleached husks

Hissing in whispers

 

                                Ever knelt

                                On hard rock

                                To listen?

 

                                Or begged

                                For a loan

                                At a bank?

 

 

I have.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Litany of a Wounded Barn

 

The barn door

Hangs unhinged

Forming

Geometric patterns

Elongated rectangles and triangularities

Structuring

Gradations of light and darkness,

Of color and shadow

With iconographic

Exactness.

 

The barn

Sings to God

In symbols

Of liturgical significance

While Wyeth and Mondrian

Worship.

 

 

Art – both realistic and abstract – is a form of worship.  Wyeth (realist) and Mondrian (abstractionist) belong at two ends of the same “liturgical” continuum.  There are, however, other forms of art which cannot be likened to worship.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

A Question of Epistemology

 

The world is

Too much…

                     Agreed?

 

But is it

Too much

With us

Or without?

 

In our victory

Or rout?

 

How to perceive

The final sense:

 

By abstinence

Or deed

By science, calculus,

Or creed?

 

What to condemn?

What tout?

When to be

Silent

When

To shout:

                    Agreed!

 

That’s it!

That’s all –

All we dare hope

All we dare need:

A common bond!

                    Agreed?

 

 

As a graduate student (at Stanford), my professors kept telling me: you must learn to ask meaningful questions.  As a graduate student (at Moscow University – long before glasnost), my professors supplied me with answers and told me not to ask questions.  Did I emerge from my education with sets of (now) meaningless answers to meaningless questions?  Does agreement define meaning?  I’m still confused.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The Illogic of Linguistic and Other Systems

 

Can you really

Expect

Logic

From a language

Where

Twice nyet

Is

    just

           that:

A way

To emphasize

Rejection?

 

But is this

Any worse

Than having

“Fat chance”

        and

“Slim chance”

Mean

The same

Thing?

 

Were Shakespeare

And Pushkin,

Stevens

And Pasternak

Logical?

 

Is God?

 

 

In Russian – unlike English – a double negative (“Twice nyet” or “twice no”) merely emphasizes, and does not negate, the negative.  It may be argued that if God were logical, then He would be determined by logic in his actions, and hence “unfree”.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

In Memoriam

 

Poetry

            is

The mnemon

Of human

Emotion

 

            Once rhymed,

            Forever

            Remembered.

 

 

Poetry helps people “remember”.  The fact/legend of a Greek tyrant unknowingly marrying his own mother, if described in prose, might have been forgotten or remembered as an early day “psychiatric” case study.  Sophocles made it immortal – something that will be remembered until the end of human imagination.  Most religions are first vocalized in poetry (as chants); most religious books – the great ones – contain poetic elements, or are themselves poems.  Most alchemist formulas were set down in poetic form – and the only way I can remember how many days a month has is by reciting the jingle: “30 days hath September, April, June, and November…” etc.  Poetry helps us all to “Remember”.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Anarchist’s Song

 

No!

        Ultimate truth

        Is not

        For the poet

 

                            It ends

                            The freedom

                            Of questing

 

The sky

Has been punctured too much

With final equations

 

And earth,

With the horror

Of final solutions.

 

 

Some poets and literary critics demand that poetry seek and deliver “Truth”.  But is “Poetic” – the language of poetry – the proper medium for articulating truth?  My own goal is a bit more modest – an attempt through poetry to present different points of view:  sometimes my own, sometimes of others, even of my “enemies”.  I think poetry should be included in any serious attempt to investigate Cosmic History – both because there is (or can be) a history of poetry, and also because “Poetic” as an instrument of communication is uniquely suited for conveying other points of view together with the various emotions evoked by such other (different, contradictory, synthetic, and anti-synthetic, etc.) views.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Is Youth Wasted on the Young?

 

Mean

       Time

Has been

Truly named

 

It starts off slowly

(More or less)

But then accelerates

Speeds on

Speeds by

 

And leaves us

Breathless

In the end…

 

 

“Lineal time”, “cyclical time”, “serial time”, and here “psychological time.”  And now that I am over sixty years old, time does seem to run faster.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Zeitgeist + Geldgeist = Weltgeist?

 

“For time’s

Money”,

So they say

 

Yet, physicists

Still argue

Whether time

Really is

 

Or ever was.

 

Wise Albert said

The tenses

Are

 

Yes, stubborn – yet

A mere

Convention.

 

Then,

            surely

Money

Does exist!

 

Of course,

But only

If it serves

As symbol,

 

As something

Which is

Something else…

 

In essence,

A conventional

Device

 

Worth more

Than self

As figment

Of a larger

Human

Fiction.

 

And this

Is proof

Enough

For us

 

That in a world

                          – all

                             too real –

It’s unreality

That’s crucial.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

George Slays the Dragon

 

Conceive of time

As a snake

Locked into loop

With mobius twist –

Hence, infinite –

And yet, devouring its tail

And with each gobbled serpent’s scale

“When” turns to “then”

 

Conceive of time as a constant, mutilating

Pain

Of crumbling bone and naked nerve

 

Conceive of time as a twisted, self-consuming

Jail

In which we serve…

 

And then, release!

For Aleph becomes Beth

And higher calculus of life

Transcends

Infinities of suffering and death.

 

 

“George” of the title is the mathematician Georg Kantor, the formulator of the famous transfinite system of number, in which “Aleph” (the first letter of the Jewish alphabet) is the first “number” and is equivalent to ¥ (or infinity in our ordinary system of numeration).  “Beth” (the second letter of the Jewish alphabet) becomes the second number in Kantor’s transfinite series.  Kantor’s use of the Jewish alphabet suggest that his transfinite series was itself finite!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Coming or Going Home?

 

And is it now

In the ebb

                 and flow,

Or half a century

Ago,

As I return,

A traveled man

To where,

                 for me

It all began?

 

And in the universe

I sense,

Time’s canvas

Is,

      of course

Immense…

 

But not without

Recompense

 

A hitch…

 

A slippage –

To or fro? –

In time’s flow:

Is it today?

                   Tomorrow?

Or

     Long,

               long ago?

 

A stitch

Once dropped

Unravels

The entire

Knitted

             skein

The end is here,

At last!

Or is it time

To begin

Again?

 

 

Again, the fascinating notion of cyclical time.  Written after a visit to the University of Oregon – my undergraduate University which I had not seen for over thirty years.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Pre-Requiem Litany

 

I’m not the man

I used to be

In truth, I never was

 

But still I am

What God made me

For purposes he chose

 

He spun the clay

And gave it birth

In image, we are One

 

And I will triumph

Over death

‘though nailed like His Son

 

The earth, the sea

The sky at dawn

The pine and the rose

 

This journey

That God set for me

Myself, I gladly chose.

 

 

Are we determined?  Are we free?  For me – and I can only speak for myself – the Christian metaphor provides the best insight.  We are determined (not necessarily predestined or destined) to be free.  Evil roots in anything less than freedom.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

“We Are All Actors”…

 

It is really

Too appealing

 

                        Curtain up

                        And curtain falling

 

Roles and roles

Just keep on rolling

Nights and days

And months and years

Who am I?

 

                        And who

                        My peers?

 

All I know

Is that applause

Never gave me

Rest nor pause…

 

                        Merely feeding

                        My ambition

                        For a greater

                        Repetition.

 

 

The stage metaphor for life seems particularly appealing when applied to time.  Plays have beginnings and ends (linear time); yet the same play, containing the same beginning and end, is presented over and over again (circular time); sets of plays, e.g. by Sophocles or Chekhov, are sometimes grouped together and presented in sequence (sequential or serial time), etc.  And while plays have endings, actors die (offstage), and playhouses burn down – theater as a process goes on and on and on (immortality?).

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Anton Pavlovich Chekhov: A Repeated Requiem

 

As the curtain

Severs

The scene

Like a scalpel

Slicing

            through

Sorrow

Past applause

Understand

What I mean

In the final

Silence

To

       follow

 

      For the end

      Of all plays

      Is the same

 

      Since time

      Is something

      We borrow

 

      For the end

      Of all plays

      Is the same

 

      Set the stage

      Once again

      For tomorrow!

 

 

Chekhov was not only a playwright, but also a doctor.  Critics say that he brought a clinical detachment to his character analysis.  Be it as it may, there is some truth that he did bring some of the wisdom of his medical learning to his writing.  His plays – most of them – it is said can be treated as either comedies or tragedies.  Like life.  Theater, again, illustrates cyclical time and a species of immortality.  Whatever happens in a play, or to actors, playwrights, etc., the “stage” is “set”…”once again/For tomorrow!”  And the show goes on.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

No Time for Sorrow

 

Like a blade of spring grass

We lift our heads skyward

Greeting the day

Our brief growing season…

 

                        Too soon, too soon

                        Autumn will come

                        And we

                        The harvest

 

But the moment itself

Is reward enough

And the earth around us…

 

 

Another attempt to deal with the problem of time and death in “Poetic” – or the language of poetry.  The same theme would find a very different articulation in “Scientific”, the language of science.  Both are – would be – metaphors, giving us insight into something which we have not yet found a common vocabulary to describe completely.  Maybe we never will and, yet again, we might.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Horologue

 

Greet the morning

Meet the day

Welcome evening

On its way

Then embrace

The fallen night

Kiss her gently

Hold her tight.

 

 

An attempt (which many poets for some reason seem they should make at least once in awhile) to come to terms with the passage of time and with death.  The title “Horologue” and the expression “fallen night” suggest that death – in a traditional sense – is somehow like a “fallen” woman; that there is something “indecent” or “improper” (again, in a traditional sense) about death.  So, as one must be gentle to “fallen women”, one must be “gentle” (not scream, fight, abuse) to death.  I think the expression “fallen women” is odious – because convention made it so.  Possibly, it has also made death seem odious.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Sentenced to Immortality

 

Death is not

Termination

 

Nor yet

A beginning

 

It strikes

At the reachable midpoint

Of Zeno’s strange,

Endless journey

To nowhere…

 

                        And makes

                        Gilgamesh

                        Our compass

 

                        And the Wandering Jew

                        Our

                                brother.

 

 

I’ve always been fascinated with science fiction stories that question the desirability of human immortality.  Were Gilgamesh, the Wandering Jew, and the Flying Dutchman (who was originally in, but was later deleted from the poem) ever really happy?  I have been and even at sixty-two hope to be again.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Death on Campus

 

The streets

Grew warm,

Unseasonably so –

 

Confused,

Some foolish trees

Felt spring again!

 

They budded…

 

Then,

Snow fell

(Like spittle

Slopping from the sky)

 

Cold struck,

Buds withered,

While I?

My body warm,

And yet,

Ice touched my heart

 

A steam pipe froze

 

A ventman

Slowly

Died

 

That night,

What dreams were frozen

Mutely

Deep inside?

 

 

When one cold night a ventman was found dead on the Penn campus – I wrote this poem, and gave it to my students who were asked to contribute something toward organizing a “Cold Patrol” on campus, to give ventmen blankets, food, warm drink.  We collected close to $300.00 (from one class) – and a “Cold Patrol” was organized.  Subsequently, the poem was used by The Philadelphia Society for the Homeless (on the program for one of their outreach meetings).

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Exit by Choice

 

Pretend –

                 That demise

                 is your matter

                 of choice

Don’t slobber and yell

(As on entry)

 

Welcome, instead,

Hot lead

In your heart

 

Praise the aim

Of your

Liberator.

 

 

Human beings do not enter life gracefully.  Exiting, we should, perhaps, display some grace under pressure.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Remembering the Unhappened

 

We all have memories

Of things

Unseen,

Of times gone

That never were

Yet must have been

 

Of sunlit

Days

Without

Sun

 

Of numbers

Infinite

Yet

One

 

Of candles

Melting

Walls

Of ice –

                        For selfish

                        Ends

                        A selfless

                        Sacrifice,

 

                        Of love in hate

                        And hell in paradise?

 

 

Imagination is dangerous for a historian, especially when she/he begins to “remember” things that never happened.  Unlike the historian (and I’m a professional historian) the poet is granted that privilege.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Homo academicus: After Thirty Years of Teaching

 

Your world is wide!

But my hallways are narrow…

So tell me,

                  so tell me

Do daisies

Still bloom

Outside?

 

 

Yet another reason for the Cosmic History Club.  Academic walls can get narrower and narrower, and no room is left for daisies to bloom.  Is there room for them “outside” beyond the academic edifice which, for some on campuses, has become their total universe?  And I did write this after having taught for thirty years – for three whole decades (for some reason “three decades” sounds longer than “thirty years”).

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

A Thought for Some Professors

 

“Beneath a fashioned surface

Of diffidence

Or

Brashness”,

You pronounce

(Ignotum per ignotiores),

“All students are empty!”

 

                            Like wells

                            Longing

                            For water?

 

 

A bane or an affliction on our campuses are Professors who declare (and mean it!) that their academic careers would be wonderful if it weren’t for students.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Non-Dialogue with an “In” Poet-Critic

 

“Your poetry”,

He said to me,

“Has crafty lines,

Cunning rhymes

And

Rhythmic penchants.

 

All these

Are now

Passé

 

“You see”,

He said to me,

“Your poetry

Moves

In quite a different

Direction,

Against the Trend –

Against our modern

Flexion”.

 

“Read copiously,

Friend,

And in the end”,

He said to me,

“You’ll fall in line.

And reading modern verse,

You can

Begin

With mine”.

 

What happy words!

 

You see

‘Til then

I did not know

My poems moved

And had

Direction…

 

You see,

‘Til then

I did not know

That I could be

So easily,

So inadvertently

                             (So gallingly?)

Original.

 

 

Some twelve years ago, when I first started writing poetry, I took my efforts to a well-established poet-critic.  I felt I needed some advice, and, to confess, wanted an encouraging word.  The poet-critic suggested that if I really wanted to learn how to write and be published – I should read his poetry.  All of it.  But he did say that I “declaimed well” and suggested that I should do a public concert of his poetry.  This incident inspired the “Non-Dialogue”…

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Hometown Lost

 

I’ve never seen

Harbin

Again…

 

                Bombs fell

                My parents

                Took me

                                from my crib

                And carried me

                Away

 

                                           And never looking

                                           Back

                                           As death

                                           Came howling

                                           On our track,

                                           Pursued us on the way…

 

And I became

That dreadful day

An excommunicated

Émigré

 

                                           Forever

                                           On the run.

 

 

I was born in Harbin.  And to some extent “Harbin of the Mind” is still “Hometown”.  But there is such a thing as “Émigré” culture – located somewhere on the interface between two or more cultures.  It is in this sense that I tend to write “interface” poetry.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Homo canis?

 

Behind desks

And barricades of books

Historians work

With such intense

                             purposiveness

Of pace!

 

Like small leashed dogs marching

Bushward.

 

 

Publish or perish!  Publish or perish!  This dictum often faces academics (historians among them) to write, write, write with an “intense”…”purposiveness”, but unfortunately much of what is written has little scholarly, let alone broadly cultural, value.  There are exceptions, of course, but they are rare.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Changing Venue: Temporarily Binomial Conduct

 

I’ve taken to carrying

Two briefcases

On campus

 

One is for “history”

The other,

For verses

 

The former

Gets lighter,

The latter

Grows heavy

 

                        I shall have

                        No problem

                        Retiring!

 

 

I started writing poems twelve years ago and thereby found a “career” which I will continue pursuing after my retirement as history professor and as historian.  I find that I now prefer to talk “Poetic” (the language of poetry in English and Russian) more than “Historic” (the language of history).  “Poetic” (whether in English or Russian) seems to have less confining vocabulary which can, in fact, subsume and absorb “Historic” – and go beyond.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Boundaries Are Actually Frontiers

 

Mental fences

Merely define

The territory

Encompassed

 

                        Let’s play leap-frog!

 

 

To me, our Cosmic History Club was precisely an attempt (at times astonishingly successful) to “leap” over the walls and fences that (on campuses and elsewhere) separate departments and disciplines – and in a larger (more “cosmic”?) sense separate science from religion, religion from religion, atheism from religion, poetry from prose, mystic from empirical, ethics (theory) from ethics (practice) and so on.