Louis MacNeice
The Suicide (c. 1937)
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And this, ladies and gentlemen, whom I am not in fact |
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Conducting, was his office all those minutes ago, |
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This man you never heard of. These are the bills |
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In the intray, the ash in the ashtray, the grey memoranda stacked |
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Against him, the serried ranks of the box-files, the packed |
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Jury of his unanswered correspondence |
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Nodding under the paperweight in the breeze |
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From the window by which he left; and here is the cracked |
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Receiver that never got mended and here is the jotter |
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With his last doodle which might be his own digestive tract |
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Ulcer and all or might be the flowery maze |
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Through which he had wandered deliciously till he stumbled |
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Suddenly finally conscious of all he lacked |
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On a manhole under the hollyhocks. The pencil |
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Point had obviously broken, yet, when he left this room |
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By catdrop sleight-of-foot or simple vanishing act, |
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To those who knew him for all that mess in the street |
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This man with the shy smile has left behind |
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Something that was intact. |