Denise Levertov
Zeroing In (1964)
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"I am a landscape," he said, |
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"a landscape and a person walking in that landscape. |
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There are daunting cliffs there, |
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and plains glad in their way |
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of brown monotony. But especially |
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there are sinkholes, places |
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of sudden terror, of small circumference |
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and malevolent depths." |
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"I know," she said. "When I set forth |
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to walk in myself, as it might be |
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on a fine afternoon, forgetting, |
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sooner or later I come to where sedge |
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and clumps of white flowers, rue perhaps, |
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mark the bogland, and I know |
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there are quagmires there that can pull you |
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down, and sink you in bubbling mud." |
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"We had an old dog," he told her, "when I was a boy, |
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a good dog, friendly. But there was an injured spot |
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on his head, if you happened |
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just to touch it he'd jump up yelping |
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and bite you. He bit a young child, |
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they had to take him to the vet's and destroy him." |
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"No one knows where it is," she said, |
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"and even by accident no one touches it: |
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It's inside my landscape, and only I, making my way |
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preoccupied through my life, crossing my hills, |
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sleeping on green moss of my own woods, |
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I myself without warning touch it, |
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and leap up at myself--" |
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"--or flinch back |
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just in time." |
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"Yes, we learn that |
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It's not terror, it's pain we're talking about: |
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those places in us, like your dog's bruised head, |
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that are bruised forever, that time |
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never assuages, never." |
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